Saturday, July 21, 2007

State Tournament - Day 1

Our boys played a great game. It started out slowly but we blew them away in the fifth inning. I was very proud of all the boys but especially my little guy. He pitched a good game and had good defense behind him for those that did hit the ball. We ended up winning 14 - 9. You can read the details of the game at our baseball blog. The link is on the side bar of this blog. Feel free to leave words of encouragement for the team. Tomorrow we face the team that we beat in the best 2 of 3 in our district tournament. They beat the team from West Volusia and we beat the team from San Antonio. Both of us advance to the winner's bracket and face off at 3 PM tomorrow.

As you can see, I have not updated my weight table and/or chart because I refused to even bring my scale with me to the tournament. Not a priority this weekend. LOL! I'll keep you posted on your progress throughout the tournament. Wish us luck. (once again!)

Arriving at the State Tournament

Well, here I am back in Florida but oh so far from home. My sister, Sue and my neice, "Drissy" drove down with me to watch my younger son play in the state baseball tournament. Unfortunately, my weight program has been put on hold for a few days because it is next to impossible to eat on a regular basis when we are living at a baseball field. I am going to try to watch as much as possible what goes in the mouth, but I am not going to let my weight program rule the week. I am here to enjoy watching my son play ball, and that is my main priority right now. After this week we are going to return to Ohio so that my younger son can enjoy some time with his grandma. I am hoping soon to have a picture with my mom and me so that you can I can share with you a bit of my family. I will keep you posted on how we do in the state tournament. Our first game is tomorrow at 11:3o so check back for updates. Wish us luck.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Day 22





Weight - 266

A little gain today but I had the chili with that had some ground beef. I guess a little splurge isn't going to totally kill my plan. I enjoyed it and I'll hop on back on track tomorrow. Today my mother is really having difficulty remembering where she is and other factors about her life. She thinks that my dad's funeral was just a week or two ago and he's been gone for over 20 years. We have spent most of the morning reorienting her and showing her her orientation board and posters on the wall to put her at ease. She is so worried about her house, her pets (that my brother is tending to), her kids ... and even the deceased. It just amazes me sometimes how the human mind can play tricks on a person.

Above is a picture of my older son who was able to come up with me to Ohio. My younger son is still in Florida practicing for the state baseball tournament. While up here, Tommy went to Cedar Point with my neice and her husband. He had a fun time but think he would have had more fun had his brother been there with him. We may go back when Timmy comes up after states.

I'll probably be back later to add more to this post.

Well, everyone except for my sister that lives here has gone home. Ahhhh ... finally a little time to relax. Even though it isn't my house, I feel that I need to work around the clock to keep it clean with nine people tooling around. Tomorrow the volunteer from hospice will be here during the day so my son and I will go and explore the wonderful towns of Huron and Sandusky. Then we will go to Firelands so that my son can see where his aunt Sue works. It will be nice to get away and relax a bit.

My mom had a very confusing afternoon. This was expected because so many people were coming and going. She seemed to change decades with each person that walked into her room. She went from times before I was born (keep in mind i am 43 years old) to yesterday. Asking for things that she insists she brought here that she hasn't had in many many years. My sister, neice and I are getting pretty good at keeping her calm and redirecting or reorienting her but my oldest brother really has a hard time when she goes through those bouts of dimensia. Sometimes it is very heartbreaking yet others you have to walk out of the room and laugh. It has been quite the emotional roller coaster here. LOL.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Weigh-In #2

I am feeling a little pouty today. I had my second weigh in and it seems that I have lost only a pound since my last weigh in. :-( I had lost more but had the bit of a gain that caused it to look bad. I am really trying to stick to the program but it has become increasingly difficult with the more people that show up here. I made a huge pot of chicken and rice and that was pretty close to being within the program. I only had a little of that and then ate a HUGE salad with fat free ranch. Today everyone wanted chili. I was going to make a big pot of regular chili for folks that weren't worried about fat content and a smaller pot with the MorningStar Crumbles for those of us that do. Well, folks had a fit (why, I don't know!) so I ended up making a huge pot with half ground beef and half crumbles. I have some fat free hotdogs so I am just going to put a little on my hotdog so that I can stay within my fat grams for the day. Nothing would be worse than getting TE's while having to change and manipulate my mother. I'll be cleaning up two stinky behinds. LOL!

It is nice visiting with family but it sure can be stressful with this many grown adults who all have their own way of thinking and doing things in regard to my mother. There are moments you can cut the tension here with a knife. Maybe I should add some of that to the chili that I spend half of the afternoon making that I can't even eat. Tainted chili ... ahh ahh ahh .... the true revenge.

In a little over a week, we will be heading back to Florida for about a week to watch my son's state baseball tournament. I can't wait. I sure do miss that turd-muffin. He has called several times all excited about stuff that the town is doing for our team. So far, they have gotten new flex-fit hats with their name and number on the side, matching Mizuno windbreakers with their names embroidered on the back, and matching Mizuno backpack baseball bags with their names embroidered on them. It will be so nice seeing those boys walk on the field looking like they've come to play some serious ball. It is so great that our community has stepped it up a notch for these boys.

I may come back in a bit and add some more to the blog. We'll see.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Day 20 - Getting Back on Track

Weight - 268

Yeah!!!! I am finally on the way back down! I was so very surprised at the loss today. Last night we had a volunteer from Hospice come in to spend some time with Mom while we went bowling and out to dinner. It was a nice break. We ate at Ryan's Buffet which of course could have been the true beginning of the end. I was so surprised when I got there because it was very fat/calorie conscious friendly. Tons and tons of salad options and they even had real fat free dressing. I made a wonderful salad and even indulged in three pieces of pepperoni. I also had a tablespoon or two of crab salad and two little blocks of cheese. I had a baked potato with some fresh mushrooms. They even had sugar-free / reduced fat chocolate pudding on the dessert bar and low fat butter pecan frozen yogurt. I honestly have no clue how many fat grams I consumed but I must not have done too badly because I took the Alli and didn't have any TE's.

Today my sister and neice left for a nice relaxing few days in Erie, PA. (Where my sister lived before moving to Ohio.) I sure hope that they get some time to relax at the pool. I guess they are going to gamble a bit and go to a special place called Lilllydale, where they can do all kinds of things with psychics. Mom is having a great morning. She ate a big breakfast for her. She had almost a whole piece of french toast and an egg with cheese. The hospice aide came in today at about 9:00 AM. She is so wonderful. She changed the sheets on Mom's bed, gave her a complete bed bath and dressed her. I am always so afraid I am going to hurt her when I dress her because she is so fragile. Shortly after she was done, the massage therapist came in and Mom looked like she was in heaven. The therapist even asked if I would like a massage but I declined. Not quite ready to have strangers manipulating my body. Maybe the skinny me would have taken her up on the offer but "not so much" now. I will be running to Wal-mart after my son and my nephew-in-law get up so that I can get her prescription. We will have the whole family here over the weekend so I need to make sure we have enough food for everyone. Keep in mind, I have a HUGE family - my brother, Bob and his wife, Belinda; my sister, Vonne and her son Donnie (her husband will stay at home and her daughter, Drissy, is the one who stays here to help with Mom); my brother, Tom; Sue (who lives here); me and my son and my neice's husband. It will be quite a family gathering. I am going to make sure that I get food for them; They are big eaters! But, I am also going to make sure that I get food that will allow me to keep myself full so that I am not tempted to sneak the "good stuff" here and there.

It will be a long two days that I taking care of Mom by myself, but as I have said in past posts, I am glad that I am able to finally help. It makes Mom feel good (and me too!).

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Day 18 -- UGGGG!

Weight - 269

9:35 - Still holding ag 269. At least there wasn't a gain. I have noticed that I haven't been drinking as much water as I usually do. I am keeping bottled water in the fridge so that everytime I go out to get something for my mom, I can get a quick cold drink. I sure do miss my fridge with cold water and ice in the door. I would go by and get a drink constantly throughout the day. We have a hospice volunteer that comes in tonight for three hours so that we can get away. I believe the plan is to go bowling at a local bowling alley. That should be fun. I know good and well that my sister and neice will order tons of fried finger food (mushrooms, cheese sticks, french fries, etc). I am going to pack some celery in a ziplock bag so that I can have something to nibble on. Hopefully this will keep me from indulging while bowling. Fried mushrooms are my favorite!!! So I will sit very far away from that basket. LOL!

My mom is having a pretty good morning. Her bottom is quite sore, bless her heart. She kind of goes in and out of dimensia, insisting that my sister has flown to California. It might be a long day. I will probably post throughout the day to help occupy my time. After the nurse comes (sometime between 10 and 11) I am going to try to do a Walk Away the Pounds Video to see if I can get my weight moving back down the way it was before I came up to Ohio.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Day 17 - Hanging Strong

Weight = 269

My daily weigh-in showed that I didn't lose any weight but I didn't gain any. That in itself is actually a good thing especially since we ate at Olive Garden. I did choose very well and got grilled shrimp with a red sauce. I knew that I should stay away from the creamy stuff. I also had one plain breadstick and of course salad. It was quite delicious but the shrimp w red sauce was quite spicy. A special thanks to Jessica for sharing the virtual model website. I have linked her blog and the virtual model website to my blog... check it out!

Mom was up very early this morning (5:30). I got her some breakfast and got her changed and she is now back asleep at about 9:30. Between her and my sister's two geratric cats I have had my fill of "poopage." Do they make diapers for cats? Hmmmm ... might have to research that online. LOL!

My older son, who is here with me will be going to Cedar Point today with my neice and her husband. He is so anxious after driving by the park yesterday. He is a roller coaster freak and that is a park that is slam-full of roller coasters.

I sure do miss my younger son. He is still back in Florida practicing for his state baseball tournament. I will see him in a little over a week. I am sure that time will crawl until then. We aren't sure if we are going to drive or fly to Florida for the tournament. We'll see when the time comes. My neice says that we can get pretty inexpensive flights from Columbus to Pensacola on some small airlines. Like I said, "We'll see ... LOL!

It is now the end of the day and I have been so good today. I was very diligent when my sister brought home what she called a BAP (Big A$$ Pizza) and my son (bless his heart) brought me home an elephant ear from Cedar Point. I told my sister to say that I ate some when he was in the bathroom but (as much as I wanted to) I did not even have a sniff. I made my homemade alli-friendly soup made out of 98% fat free chicken broth, a small boneless / skinless chicken breast, tons of celery and a few noodles. I ate this for both lunch and dinner. I did have a weight watchers ice cream sandwich following dinner for dessert. All total I had about 1300 calories and 31 grams of fat today. If I gain another pound tomorrow, it will be very hard for me to not give up and just eat what I want after being so strong.

Monday, July 9, 2007

Day 16 - Minor set back

Weight - 269

I am slowly gaining weight again. I find it very difficult to make my mother meals high in calories to help her gain weight and let the major portion that she won't eat go to waste. I guess it is the mother in me that makes me feel that it is not right to waste perfectly good food. I ended up eating half a grilled ham and cheese sandwich and about 2 cups of condensed vegetable soup (no meat) for lunch. It was about 22 fat grams due to the only bread we had was light bread but I did use real cheese and reduced fat margarine. I am managing the fat grams fairly well but the calorie intake is another thing. I did well for breakfast with a weight watchers bagel and fat free cream cheese. I think we are going out to dinner tonight. God grant me the wisdom to choose carefully tonight from the menu.

Mom is having a pretty good day. She slept for a bit after the hospice nurse came in and ate a pretty good lunch. She had half a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, about a cup of vegetable soup and half a nectarine. I am having some trouble convincing her to drink. I push the water and juice and all she seems to want is coffee. I guess I will try again after lunch. The hospice volunteer is coming at 1 PM to allow me to run to the store and to meet Sue for dinner. It should be a nice visit with Sue away from the stress of taking care of my mom. Sometimes I feel horribly guilty that I can't be here on a regular basis. I hope that spending the summer here (with the exception of the time for my son's state baseball tournament)will help ease this guilt a little bit.

Friday, July 6, 2007

Day 14 - 2nd Weigh-In Tomorrow

Weight - 265

Well, I made the 19 hour trip to Ohio and wow, did it seem longer than 19 hours. I used to be able to do the trip in one day but I had to stop. The lines on the road were beginning to look like strings of spaghetti. It was very difficult eating along the way. I brought tons of fat free items to eat in the car, but we had to stop and eat to try to break up the monotony of the trip. I tried to stop at areas where I knew there was a subway but that wasn't always available. On Wednesday night (the 4th of July) we stopped late and the only place we could find open was (of all places) a Waffle House. I ordered the chef salad that left alot to be desired in the salad department. They had no low fat or no fat dressing so I got ranch and dibbled the end of my fork in it a couple of times. Checking out the ingredient panel on the ranch was very eye opening. IT HAD TWO MEALS WORTH OF FAT IN ONE PACKET!!

When I got to my sister's house she had ordered a ton of pizza and an italian salad for me. She used to do weight watchers so she is pretty familiar with watching fat and calorie intake. I took my Alli and ate the whole salad with ff ranch. Well, needless to say, with all the olestra, the dribblings of ranch and the huge salad, I experienced my first bout of TE's. It wasn't horrible but I swear they thought I had some disease because I spent the majority of the night in the bathroom. LOL!

Today we stole a few minutes away from my mother (who is very ill) and managed to do some shopping so that I could get myself back on track. I am still, by no means, regular but it is much better today than it was yesterday.

Although I was down a pound, keep in mind that was over 3 days. I was averaging a pound to a pound and a half a day. I really need to get back on track. I have my second weigh-in tomorrow and pray that I will see at least one more pound by tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me and I'll post tomorrow to let ya'll know how I did.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Day 11

Weight - 266.5

I am very surprised about the pound and a half weight loss today. We went out to eat at a local pizza parlor and I had a chef salad along with mushroom parmesean. I ate all of the salad and about 3 or 4 mushrooms from the main course. I was hoping that the mushrooms would not be deep fried before the sauce was put on but no such luck. I ate, stopped by the drug store to get my prescripions (very quickly) and headed home because I as afraid of an alli-oops. I didn't have any major problems at all but did have a bit of a gas and loose stool late in the evening. It was nice to know that I can occasionally indulge without major side effects.

My older son and I will be leaving tomorrow morning for Ohio to help my sister and neice take care of my mother. I have to leave my younger son here because he will be practicing for the state tournament. That is going to be rough for me to do but I need to help out with my mother. My plans are to drive back down for states on the 20th and then head back to Ohio for the remainder of the summer. I will be in constant contact with my son and the other team parents so that I can be assured that everything is fine down here.

Today, the day will be spent packing and preparing to leave. I will be heading out to pick up the boys who spent the night at a friend's house so that we can watch the older boys baseball team who are still in district play, trying to earn their way to states for their division. They came and supported our team and we need to do the same in return.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Day 10


Weight - 268

Down another pound!!! This post is going to be my boasting ... no, not about my weight .... about my son. A picture says a million words!!

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Day 9 on Alli

Weight - 269 (down 8 pounds since 6/23/07)


Well, it is off to the ballpark once again. This game will determine who goes to the state tournament. The boys did fantastic, especially our young fellow who smacked a grand slam! Due to a lengthy rain delay, we didn't get back from the ball park until 2 AM. Of course, my son was hungrier than a horse and the only place open was the Taco Bell drive-thru. After a thorough look at the menu, I quickly noticed that absolutely nothing that they had fit into my Alli plan. So the only thing that I could do was inhale deeply, come home .. and go to bed. Pout pout! It was very tempting to order my usual chalupas but I did very well. I will continue this post after we return from the game.

Well here I am ... back home ... and YES! We are victorious. Our boys baseball team will be going to the state tournament in two weeks. My son was the starting pitcher and was awesome for the three innings that he pitched. Then coach brought in our ace pitcher and he finished up the job. It was quite the ball game but we came up on top - 3 to 4. The game was close but considering that this is the team that knocked us out of the state tournament after earning our way to states last year, it felt so good!

I did a decent job meal-wise today. I took some of my Lays Light Chips that are fat free and nibbled on those. I did eat a few sunflower seeds and when the game after ours was rain delayed (Welcome to South Sunny Florida ... NOT!) I decided to make a quick run to Subway instead of anything from our concession stand. By the time we made it back to the park, they were just cancelling the games for the day so now I am at home, resting in my comfy chair. Practice and make up games tomorrow starting at 3 PM.