Weight - 269
I am slowly gaining weight again. I find it very difficult to make my mother meals high in calories to help her gain weight and let the major portion that she won't eat go to waste. I guess it is the mother in me that makes me feel that it is not right to waste perfectly good food. I ended up eating half a grilled ham and cheese sandwich and about 2 cups of condensed vegetable soup (no meat) for lunch. It was about 22 fat grams due to the only bread we had was light bread but I did use real cheese and reduced fat margarine. I am managing the fat grams fairly well but the calorie intake is another thing. I did well for breakfast with a weight watchers bagel and fat free cream cheese. I think we are going out to dinner tonight. God grant me the wisdom to choose carefully tonight from the menu.
Mom is having a pretty good day. She slept for a bit after the hospice nurse came in and ate a pretty good lunch. She had half a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, about a cup of vegetable soup and half a nectarine. I am having some trouble convincing her to drink. I push the water and juice and all she seems to want is coffee. I guess I will try again after lunch. The hospice volunteer is coming at 1 PM to allow me to run to the store and to meet Sue for dinner. It should be a nice visit with Sue away from the stress of taking care of my mom. Sometimes I feel horribly guilty that I can't be here on a regular basis. I hope that spending the summer here (with the exception of the time for my son's state baseball tournament)will help ease this guilt a little bit.
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I think you're doing a great deal for your mom. You are a wonderful daughter, being there for your mom when she needs you most. I may never be in the situation you are in, (my mom died shortly after I was born) but if, I would do the same, being there for her no matter what. For the weight gain, why don't you try prepare less food for your mom so there are no leftovers? Or freeze the rest and serve it a couple days’ later that way you don't have to waste food and you're not feeling guilty. That's how I got huge, eating the leftovers because it's ashamed wasting perfectly fine food. No more, I serve it a day or two later.
My thoughts are with you and your mom!
I admire you! Don't beat yourself up too much Teach. You are going through a very stressful time in life right now. It's only natural to want to curl up in the warmth and comfort of food. BUT STAY STRONG!! You don't need junk food to get you through this. I'm not super religious, but I do believe that in times like these you should lean on J.C. not Ben & Jerry. Veronika had wonderful advice, and its what I do: Freeze left overs and eat it later. (Not everything eat well later, so you're going to have to just let it go sometimes.) Bless you and your family. You will be in my prayers tonite.
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